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im bloody lazy to update my blog these days.noo moood nooo expression noo inspiration noo time. later..

flight to london is on 4th of july and azmin prepare.... nothing...well..not yet

i haven't
~pack my things.
~beli baju for the graduation (if angah tak cakap 'pakai lawa2 tau' i wont bother about this,isk)
~beli SD 1GB
~ambil spec at ong's
~withdraw money
~tukar duit
~charge all electronic gadget
~oh...basuh baju...


arghhh serabut serabut
im gonna miss home,along,anas,anan,amir,ami,k gayah,ayam,bilik,lappie.
so now im in ' serabut+malas nak pegi+best jugak ' mode.

hope it would be a splendid journey. amin...

wasting time

Put your player on shuffle.
Answer the question with the song you got.

What does your mum said when she yelled at you?
cheer up boys (your make up is running)...foo fighter
hurmmm weird...maybe my mum yelled at me because i look so sad then...spasiba


Your best friend punches you in the arm, what will she say?
ya nabiyya...UNIC
thats what friend for,remind you when you forget :)


Your crush bumps into you at school, what will he say?
heard em say...kanye west ft adam lavgn
nothing last forve but be honest babe...lala
huh? er....ok mr.crush?


You worst enemy walks up to you, what will you say
fly away...nelly
fly away wuuuuu....and i wont come back, got a few more feet but its still the lonest yard
longest yard,uh huh.hey it takes a lot to control your rage okey!blah le cepat...gerrr


You are walking down the street at night with stranger, what will he say?
perantau-far east
selamat tingal desa ku...jauh di perantauan...lalala hahaha
he just telling me about himself,i guess...


You see your pet, what will you say to her
wait for you ...elliot yamin
i never felt nothing in this world before..bla bla bla..now im missing you......
what a romantic moment there,it just a pet doh.


Your favorite teacher comes to you, what will she say?
walk away ...kelly clarkson
you got your mother,you brother, everyother, telling you what to say
ok...thats pelik


What song do you play when you are...
Happy
wonderful life
eh..kebetulan lak. :D


Sad
ya mustofa ...sami yusof
ya mustofa...ya mustofa..ya mustofaa...
ya..ingat lah Nya.itu yang terbaik


Depressed
sedarlah insan...shuhotul amal
kemana akan pergi selepas hidup ini....sudah bersediakah kamu....
wow! how did this i pod know?! so true. why depress over keduniaan matter?


In love
hear you me...jimmy eat world
there is no one in town i know..you gave us some place to go..
yeah,you do..accept that 'you' doesnt exsist.


Missing someone,
man ana...brothers..
this shuffle thingy,getting more weird.


Having a bad day
kerana sayang, V.E
WHAT?! i have this song in my ipod eh?


Trying to go to sleep
pillars of islam--zain bikha
yes.insan memang selalu lupa. mesti ingatkan diri sebelum tidur!


Really really hyper
higher..creed
no comment


What song was being played when you were...

Having your first birthday
ya nabi salamun alaika
really?

Going out with your first boyfriend
one perfect something...linkin park
yeah...i know im one of a kind.uh welllllll


Getting married
c'mon c'mon...von bondies
Yeah baby yeah! cmon! kah kah kah kah


When you're having your first kid
cant take my eyes off you..muse
y're too good to be true...cant take my eyes off you...
yes my baby,,i cant,can i? ;)

blackout

cant believe it,
tadi blackout.
i mean,hurmmm tah brapa lama tah tak blackout.
brings back memories...yaaaaa..........

anyway, i was having a session with anis,when the light suddenly hilang,
ermm....what to do?

listened to ipod and main solitare. ...
bored,then
lepak kat bilik mama and abah with other siblings...
bored,then
watch anime 'hidamari sketch' with amir (hoping that i've charge the lappie',and yes i did ,thank god!)
kindda bored then,
watch till habis....then

voila the lights are back to shine my life! thanks TNB!

a little incident here, makes me realize that, how i cling on gadget that required electricity wayyyy toooooooooo much....causing less interaction between human. i guess i've learned my lesson now...

ho ho ho azmin here,ho ho ho

Sabda rasulallah saw ‘Hak seorang muslim keatas muslim yang lain ada enam:

bila bertemu ucapkan salam,

Bila diundang maka penuhilah,

Bila meminta nasihat maka nasihatilah,

Bila bersin lalu memuji Allah maka Sambutlah dengan doa,

Bila sakit maka jenguklah,

Dan bila meninggal dunia maka taq’ziahlah’

H.R Muslim


A visit marathon.

Visit to kak gayah house. Bendang, lembu, langit biru, ban, morning, total blisss….. Subahanallah cantik sgt. I guess my life in Kedah cause me this. Entah la, paddy field+blue sky tu macam part of me already. I been missing it all these while….dan bila dah jumpa balik, I felt an intense feeling of exhilaration. Is that how lovers feels ?

Anyway, the visit was good. Kak gayah is one of my most respected person. I can say that she sacrificed her life to be with us. I hate to use the word ’maid’, she is more like a family to us…..kak gayah, we luff you!!!

Then to penang. Toooookkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I miss her soooooooooooooooooooooooo much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tok tak berapa sihat sekarang. Dah kena guna wheelchair. I felt weird seeing her on wheelchair. She used to be like a bee. Going here and there. Moving freely…but now, her movement is limited. Tapi her super optimistic and magnificent spirit maintain. A salute for you tok! =)

Tok nak pegi melawat org meninggal dekat guar kepayang today. So she called hanif (my cousin) untuk tolong hantarkan. Its been like 1 year ++ since the last time I met hanif (due to study and stuff) and wah, got to admit he looks like a hotties now.LOL! Dear cousin you must not read this statement or you’ll be bangga like heck.

Oh yeah and my another cousin, arifah, she such a sweetheart. So polite so sweet so nice. Tolong dia packing barang tadi siang. Esok she will be flying to Sabah! Sabah bak! Bestnyer! Congrats girl, dapat uni ermm dah lupa nama U kat Sabah tu, tapi she will be studying there. Lucky you! Belajar baik-baik ye. Teman Ipah to settle her PTPTN thingy dekat bank and lucky me, I got to know her friends,miss mira and Juliana and mr.wan. Envy them,tiap-taip raya pun boley balik rumah..hehe

Next to uncle ashburnt (abu bakar, hahahahaha) and auntie (pangil Chik je,my mum lil sis). Rindu rindu rindu! But too bad aisyah tak balik from indon lagi, and atiqah baru je p balik U, and Muhammad g keja. Oh well….tak dak rezeki la tu…maybe next time… and I gave pak cik bakaq his Russian fur hat tu! He looks like khagazstan man with that hat on. Hahaha. I think he was very very pleased with the present.

Then to giant sungai petani, arghhh anas la, dok bising nak pegi. And unexpectedly, jumpa ajie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh rindunye! Its been like hurmmm almost 3 years tak jumpa dia! And her mum, autie zah! Sob sob sob…I really really miss them,alhamdullilah jumpa. Fuh, syukur syukur. Wow wii, ajie sekarang kan, dah kurus, cantik,and berboyriend…hurmmm…

‘izzati ko tak de sesape special ke? Eceh eceh……’

No I don’t. heh.

Final visit was to rumah autie zaleha and uncle ilyas. Nak jumpa lang. lang dah tak sihat kebelakangan nie. Dah kurus sangat. Heart problem.

‘tati hang mai sini sat, cerita kat lang ubat-ubat had doctor suruh makan nie, khasiat dia apa?’

Alamak, pharmacology tak blajar lagi la!

Er….so I just like selak-selak what ubat and I found, ASPIRIN, well I can explain that very well including what pathway aspirin block! Hehe excited. Then urmm LOVASTATIN, and ntah apa lagi tah. But I did explain the importance of micturition in heart prob patient…ape ek nama ubat tu…tak ingat…start with ’F’.. im soooooooooooooo gonna work very very hard in pharmacology next year! Aja aja!

Then balik. Oh Russian choc for every visit, nak kasi semua martroshka mahal sangat la…hehe =D

‘sesungguh nya orang-orang mukmin itu bersaudara’
al-hujurat:10

mama,jangan la marah... part 2

Reminds me of Korean series ‘snow queen’Kim jyung-kyu(environment factor?)
Son of a rich man. Very smart father.
Good looking. Famous as ‘the genius boy’ and acknowledge by the whole korea. Kuat belajar la.

Han tae woo(gene factor?) Son of a poor single mother who sells noodles dekat tepi jalan je.
No one know him accept orang kampung dia je.
I don’t know if he rajin belajar or not, but I think not as hard as jyung kyu.

Two of them started as a rival but end up as best of friend and top student of the school(of course). Then both of them entered math Olympiad and han tae woo won gold medal, kim young-kyu went home empty handed. Cant accept the truth and pressure and failed to deal with personal inferiority,he commit suicide.

Also remind me of my favourite anime ‘death note’ Yagami raito (environment factor?)
Top scorer in japan national exam
Senang cakap a pampered prodigy.

L /ryuga hideki (gene) Erm… L is L. just read the manga k?
But he is a genius.

Yes, I know yagami raito manage to kill L but nah L dah lama tahu yagami raito was KIRA. Even N admit it,L figure it out before anyone else can.

So?

i know its a rekaan semata-mata but in real life pun same je kan?Environment and gene both influence weather one is a brainy or not. But the gene selalu akan lebih sikit. Untuk dapat 100 markah dalam exam,The one with gene require less work and will get that 100. The environment one, will need more work and will also get that 100. BUT if the gifted one work as hard as the environment one, he will get 110. Advantage for him. Rezeki dia,syukur je dengan apa yang ada.

So ,

Patut ke parents marah kalau anak dapat result teruk dalam exam? Tak ke diorang patut marah dekat diri sendiri sebab tak inherit kan gene pandai dekat anak diorang kan? He he he. . .

Kenapa parents nak sangat anak jadi pandai?. Bila exam sanggup pergi jumpa ustaz itu,ustaz ini nak suruh buat air jampi. Sanggup belI jus kurma la, kismis la, pil itu pil ini. Senang je, nak anak pandai sebab nanti dapat kerja besar, hidup stabil, orang hormat, boleh pergi overseas, and ada jugak sebab nak berbangga-bangga (tapi tak de kot kan? =) mesti husnuzon) …memang la parents always want the best for their children…tapi…

For azmin,
I think, yes exam is important. But not examination oriented! Well, maybe if you are smart your life is kinda secure. But you can never be so sure right? Allah dah tentukan rezeki dan semua lalulan hidup. Kalau dengan jadi pandai boleh dekat kan diri kita dengan Maha Pencipta then jadi pandai itu bagus. Kalau dengan jadi bodoh doleh dekat kan diri kita dengan Ya Rab then jadi bodoh la yang terbaik. Dah lupa kah kita dengan KEMENANGAN YANG AGUNG itu? Bukan ke itu yang sepatutnya yang kita aim?

Teringat hadis kotak tu….a muslim aim nyer tak sepatutnya dalam kotak itu je, but lebih dari itu. Bukan setakat pandai je sebab itu semua kan dunia je, how bout another world, the akhrat? Dah lupe ke? Sebab itu la ramai je yang got the brain but not the heart. ada hadith yang bunyi lebih kurang macam nie,

‘dan ketahuilah dalam setiap manusia ada seketul daging, yang mana kalau baik daging itu, maka baiklah orang nya, dan kalau buruk daging itu,buruklah orangnya, dan seketul daging itu ialah hati’

Sebab tu la kalau pandai tak mesti nyer baik. Becoz the hadith is talking about hati bukan akal.lagipun seronok ke kalau pandai tapi budi tak ade. Look at Dr. House, pandai but people hate him. No I don’t want to be that.

KEMENANGAN YANG AGUNG ialah bila nanti dapat masuk syurga. FOREVER! That sounds more exciting to me. How bout you?

mama,jangan la marah... part 1

She didn’t even passed her science!
Not even a C but E!
My friend daughter got 4 A’s 1B you know.
I’ve bought you books, this and that .the only thing you know is program TV nie pukul berapa, cerita kartun nie pukul berapa, yang tu tahu la.


Sounds familiar?
I bet the same things happen everywhere. Genius, smart ass, brainy, normal, stupid, bebal, lambat bla bla bla. Detentukan oleh apa ya? Genetic? Hard work? Or simply an accident? Its not like I haven’t learn about this scientifically. What would medic be without biology right? And physiology, and anatomy, and histology, and biochemistry, ahh semua pon berkait je. Maybe the classification is different, depends on the subject but we are studying the same thing. Ye kot….

Ditentukan oleh genetic kot.
Biologically and in biochemistry, we’ve discussed about gene and DNA. trait from mother and father, specifically chosen, bergantung kepada Mendel’s law of dominant and recessive. Lepas tu form a recombinant then stored in sperm head and ovum, then if lucky the set of this gene will bergabung dan diwariskan kepada janin. Smart or idiot, healthy or sick, beautiful or ugly, etc ditentukan oleh gene tadi. Jadi kalau gene dah tentukan kita tak pandai, that’s it la?

Physiologically lebih kurang sama je. Apa kaitan gene and pandai eh? Well, these DNA and gene thingy akan tentukan macam mana badan kita respon to any demand of the body. Eg, bila ada gene pandai, ezyme required to catalyze certain pathways will be expressed and activated more actively, faster and better. Demand will be fulfil bla bla bla. Senang cerita, orang yang ada gene pandai ni, senang process apa-apa je la yang nak diprocess. That why kita selalu dengar orang cakap ’dia tu cepat pick up’ or something like that.

Jadi pandai tu sebab genetic la? Ohh patut la anak doctor end up jadi doctor jugak. Anak businessman end up jadi businessman jugak. Anak petani jadi petani jugak. tapi ....kekadang anak penoreh jadi doctor jugak?

Hurmm betul jugak.

Maybe it’s the environment

Persekitaran ketika sedang membesar mamainkan peranan yang amatlah penting. Orang selalu cakap macam tu. Lets see… budak yg sedang membesar tak develop 100% lagi. Gene tak influence 100% on the development. Environment main peranan jugak.

Psychologically. Melentur buluh biar dari rebung nya. In physiology, I.M sechenov discuss a lot about higher center nervous system(the brain, CNS, ANS, receptor and few others)about instinct, dynamic stereotype, bla bla bla. In this topic we do discuss about unconditional and conditional behavior aka habit can be curb with practice. So…kalau nak kaitkan dengan pandai,the boy mungkin originally tak ada gene pandai, but kalau dah selalu kena suruh belajar ,lelama the boy dah terbiasa belajar right? So sunatullah, kalau belajar, nanti pandai. So jadi la pandai.

Oh patut la anak penoreh getah boleh jadi menteri, anak nelayan boleh jadi engineer. Anak businessman ada yang jadi penagih je.

Hurmm tak jugak…

to be continue...

good morning upper north side except azmin!

i hate this...
i cant seems to wake up early anymore...
10.30am sharp, then azmin is back to the living world.
i guess my pineal gland is extremely accurate huh.

due to this, i missed
1. the early morning smell
2.unpolluted air
3.1st streak of sunshine
4.berkat of not sleeping lepas morning prayer
5.prepare breakfast for family members.

eii so pisst... i really waste my time didnt i? its not like i have a sweet dream, meeting my prince or something,while sleeping. ah rugi betul la...

turning yummy into yuck!

What is going on with me lately?

Lazy
Lazy
Lazy
Lazy
Lazy
lazy ..
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I know I have lots of thing to do, to do this and that, bla bla bla.

Oh great you know that you have to do it, then why don’t you do it?
Ermm…. I don’t know…I just….don’t feel like doing it…I’ll do it later
‘don’t feel like doing it?!’ and that is the only reason why?!

Oi…azmin wakie wakie! I know….sigh……

Last nigt I read about this article in saifulislam about new ideology, ‘aku tidak pedulismaa’ ideology siswazah tidur dan jumud. Bila baca,my reaction was,

Ohh too bad for them, hurm mabuk dunia nie….kesian kesian Kesian?

For them? When I think back, I should be more kesian to myself. Being lazy to work, to act, to read, to think, doesn’t that makes me as one of the ‘aku tidak pedulismaa’ victim?

This is tough… being alone in the battlefield. At least in moscow I have superb people around me who always there to show me the right path,way,thing,everything. At home? Er…….lets do some case study,

Case 1.
You see, when everyone is walking with their head down, and I walk with my head up, I will felt weird and at least once I will think that ,hurmm maybe walking with head down is the correct way to walk.

Case 2
All my life, this is the way I live. This is me. What I think, what I wear, what I like, how I live my life makes me….M.E! and Im not gonna change who I’am just because what you just told me to.

Case 3
I know that im not perfect. But im young,so…. I repent when im older. You know, when Im ready to change. I mean, when I going to decide what I really REALLY really want in my life like getting married, repent, stable job, proper lifestyle, stuff like that…… I will but someday..chill la

And lets do some autopsy

Case 1 heads down and up thingy
-->Yes true. Peers pressure? Understand…..
-->Ever wonder why Quran diturunkan and why rasul diturunkn to us human being?
-->Or wonder why Rasulallah s.a.w mula-mula cari cream of the cream?

Case 2. Me myself and I
-->Nobody talking about changing you into me, right?
-->Just because some Russian are living as a communist believer before this, doesn’t means that communist ideology is right eh?
-->Oh, the sahabah Kalid al Walid was a mastermind in war sebelum masuk islam,and he still a mastermind in war after he revert to islam didn’t he?

Case 3. 007…tomorrow never dies
-->Hey! Did someone come and tell you that tomorrow for sure you will live? Wow, I want to meet that person too!
-->Where do we find prince charming? Oh yeah in fairy tales ONLY.
-->And when exactly that ‘time to change’ will come? Oh yeah, in my fantasy ONLY.
--> Habit are hard to curb…..

So lets not be the ‘aku tidak pedulismaa’ victim. Lets think! Lets turn the brain from a reserved yummy bulky protein into a worn out supercomputer!

brand new yet same old home

Done my anatomy, histology, physiology and biochemistry finals. What does that means? Say astala vista to 2nd year and helloooo summer holiday! Summer holiday, well, simply means going back to Malaysia and be a complete stranger in my own land.

Stranger in my own land?

Yes,. I think I know my country damn well but …wait a second, do I REALLY know this place anymore? The inevitable CHANGES. Look around and I see changes everywhere, the road ( in penang especially), the shops, the people, the TV programs, the politics, the prices (lontong cost me rm2.50 these days) ,the weather, my home, my siblings, my friends, everything ermm except for my bloody red painted room (glad!). Heh.



The colour change

Fine my room remain red. Warna duit untuk bayar barang dah ubah. From green (rm5) to red (rm10).The politic flags changed don’t they? From blue to green, or light blue. I leave Malaysia last year on September and I came back on june with,
oh!……
….ah…..
waaa…….
eh?……

Almost half of the states in Malaysia fell to the opposition. The penang MCA dude changed direction to Keadilan followed by his supporters. The president of party in Sabah announced to the whole country that he doesn’t support Pak Lah. Rumors about possibility of having a vote weather to support Pak Lah or not. Hurmm…..what is next? doesn’t matter.

Im not gonna talk about politics, I really don’t like it thou… my personal thought about politics is, TALK e vsio. That is it. Applies to everyone.

To the politician, they been campaigning about what they wanted to CHANGE, until next general election things remained UNCHANGED.

How bout the warung kopi lepaking pak ciks, bawah pokok mempela m gossiping mak ciks, and all the politics fans?

Aku nak habaq mai, aku tak setuju suruh cara ………….. Buat kheja. Dia tak pikiaq pakai otak ka,

Wa talak suka sama ini ………….. Woo. Dulu aaa masa ……….dulu manyak bagos,

Itu tempat hari-hari tambak mau jalan, ……….

Gue bingit bangat deh, Kera jaan mau kita pulang, ……….

Even the indons or the banglas or the sri lankans or the thailands or whatever are TALKING about it. Everyone seems to have a lot of assessments, best in the world solutions, all level friendly clarifications. Makes me wonder, why does things are hurmm dormant?

At least in debate, all we have to do is to debate on a topic and try the very best to convince the adjudicator that our stand is the most relevant. In debate, you are to talk and win. that’s debate. But we are not in debate competition here, this is about existent life, real people, actual situations which demand us to talk and to ACT.

Then who am I? im just azmin. Im an observer. I don’t like modern politics, I don’t believe in campaign, I think its rotten. But im educating myself with issue because being ignorant is not an excuse.

People are surely funny don’t they? Out of all election candidates, how many are there who actually really do it for the people? I mean, it is not an easy job right. Lots of amanah involve. And as imam ghazali said, ’benda yang paling berat ialah amanah’.

all of us read quran don’t we? Still remember the ayat about amanah of quran, it is so heavy till the mountain cant bare it, don’t dare to take it, but it’s the human with arrogance said ’Yes, I will take it’. we said yes don’t we? Hurmm… are you blaming the ancestors for accepting it? Thinking that if you are given the choice now, you wont accept it? Hah, no, you still will accept it. it’s the fitrah. Allah know us the best after all.

Kalau tidak, kenapa ramai sangat yang nak jadi wakil rakyat? Ramai yang nak pegang amanah. Sampai lupakan adab islami, sampai boleh belakangkan agama untuk dunia. Hurmm….kalau macam ni, boleh harap ke untuk pegang amanah?

Building a building, when the base itself is undone and berongga macam spongebob’s sponge, do you think the building will stand tall and doesn’t collapse?

I still remember, when abah fetched me at penang airport (flight to Kedah was full,can you believe it?!)
Abah, so Malaysia macam mana sekarang?
Oh macam-macam.
Bla bla bla bla (he was talking about politics of course)
Ei….tak paham la abah pasai pa ramai nak jadi wakil rakyat ni. Tak takut nanti kena soal pasal amanah ka?
Hurmm jadi wakil rakyat ni boleh jadi kaya.

In car with mama
Tu banglo tu …………………. punya
Oh ye ke ma,so ………………….dah jadi politician la?

At the end of the day all these thing will lead to the same thing, it is always the money. Now that the scenario will be a little different with more opposition party in pemerintahan, I wonder, will it be for better or worst (but I think its for better ;D woops)

Eh did I just drag my chair and sit behind the opponent side? My earlier statement was ’ Stranger in my own land due to the inevitable change’ But hurmm nothing seems to change actually….. Hurmmm I think its like this,


Tanam pokok balak dekat paya.
Isk kita tanam pokok balak ni tak untung la. Tebang pokok balak.
Aku rasa tanam padi lagi untung, beras kan tak cukup.
Ok kami setuju tanam padi, jom pakat ramai-ramai tanam padi ganti balak dekat paya!

Got the message?
You cant fix something if you are fixing just the superficial part of the problem. Fix the profunda!
You cant make more profit just by replacing balak to padi, if the paya remain paya.
You cant change Malaysia into a better place just by replacing the candidate A to B, if money remain as both candidate aspire.

A salute for those politician with truly pure intention.
Let them do their work
the people will never done with talking
And me? Lemme try to change, even a lil bit, by being better person. Something is better then nothing don’t they?

Nwy
GLAD TO BE HOME
PROUD TO BE MALAYSIAN ;D