heh?
ok,now listen to me close. listen? i dont speak a word, how are you goin to hear me? great, i crap again.
i wonder a lot about myself truly. when my friends said that they've read my blog i will goes like 'what?! why do you read it?! korang ni dah tak de kaja sangat dah ke sampai nak p baca blog merapu tu?' and when the next person come and tell me the same thing i will react the same way too. later i will feel like 'oh no, number of people who reading this blog is increasing, bad!' BAD? yes,somehow i felt like its a bad thing. i contradict myself didnt i? i mean if i want to keep it private then why bother to have an online-anyone-can-google-and-landed-on-this-site blog? or if i felt funny when number of people reading this bloq increasing, why didnt i private it?
i dont have an answer for that.
but what i know is,
->i love to have permanent reader who are close to me that knows my style very well. its like an update for them so that we dont have TOO much things to catch up the next time we meet.
->having online blogs makes me feel connected to the overflow input and data, borderles world of DATA not people. haha
->im crazy to this silly gadget or wiget or anything you call it. its fun and pretty. (blame my artsy futsy gene)
->comments! but too much will annoy me too.
in conclusion, if you wanted to call me 'mengada' 'sengal' 'WTF' 'pathetic' 'wriedo' 'tah pape' etc, go ahead, i accept. i personally think im weird too. tapi org gila mana mengaku gila kan. so org pelik mana mengaku pelik kan.does that makes me tak pelik?
fine;stop.
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Sunday, December 28, 2008
kissing good bye,searching for forgivness from Allah most high
Doa Akhir Tahun:
Maksudnya:
Allah SWT berselawat ke atas penghulu kami Muhammad SAW, ahli keluarga dan sahabat-sahabat baginda dan kesejahteraan ke atas mereka.
Wahai Tuhan, apa yang telah aku lakukan dalam tahun ini daripada perkara-perkara yang Engkau tegah daripada aku melakukannya dan aku belum bertaubat daripadanya. Sedangkan Engkau tidak redha dan tidak melupakannya. Dan aku telah melakukannya di dalam keadaan di mana Engkau berupaya untuk menghukumku, tetapi Engkau mengilhamkanku dengan taubat selepas keberanianku melakukan dosa-dosa itu semuanya. Sesungguhnya aku memohon keampunanMu, maka ampunilah aku. Dan tidaklah aku melakukan yang demikian daripada apa yang Engkau redhainya dan Engkau menjanjikanku dengan pahala atas yang sedemikian itu. Maka aku memohon kepadaMu.
Wahai Tuhan! Wahai yang Maha Pemurah! Wahai Yang Maha Agung dan wahai Yang Maha Mulia agar Engkau menerima taubat itu dariku dan janganlah Engkau menghampakan harapanku kepadaMu Wahai Yang Maha Pemurah. Dan Allah berselawat ke atas penghulu kami Muhammad, ke atas ahli keluarga dan sahabat-sahabatnya dan mengurniakan kesejahteraan ke atas mereka.
Maksudnya:
Allah SWT berselawat ke atas penghulu kami Muhammad SAW, ahli keluarga dan sahabat-sahabat baginda dan kesejahteraan ke atas mereka.
Wahai Tuhan, apa yang telah aku lakukan dalam tahun ini daripada perkara-perkara yang Engkau tegah daripada aku melakukannya dan aku belum bertaubat daripadanya. Sedangkan Engkau tidak redha dan tidak melupakannya. Dan aku telah melakukannya di dalam keadaan di mana Engkau berupaya untuk menghukumku, tetapi Engkau mengilhamkanku dengan taubat selepas keberanianku melakukan dosa-dosa itu semuanya. Sesungguhnya aku memohon keampunanMu, maka ampunilah aku. Dan tidaklah aku melakukan yang demikian daripada apa yang Engkau redhainya dan Engkau menjanjikanku dengan pahala atas yang sedemikian itu. Maka aku memohon kepadaMu.
Wahai Tuhan! Wahai yang Maha Pemurah! Wahai Yang Maha Agung dan wahai Yang Maha Mulia agar Engkau menerima taubat itu dariku dan janganlah Engkau menghampakan harapanku kepadaMu Wahai Yang Maha Pemurah. Dan Allah berselawat ke atas penghulu kami Muhammad, ke atas ahli keluarga dan sahabat-sahabatnya dan mengurniakan kesejahteraan ke atas mereka.
Saturday, December 27, 2008
no ispirazione
seriously..i have no inspiration these last few days. i was thinking about updating my blog (bercuti gila la blog! lama betul tidak di update), since finally after...2 months,now i have some space and air to actually breath. its not like i havent been breathing all these time but...ok short of breath then, after a week of coloq then there will be next one next week,and next one on the next 2 weeks and a week break then like abundance of 3 coloq the following week, im becoming weak and the cycle continues...when will it end? when autumn semester end. which is yes,it finally ended yesterday. fuh! alhamdullilah!
last 2 week especialy i was being cramped with books and notes.i dont study 'that' hard actually but last 2 week been the most hardest compared to others (hard here refer to azmin parameter of hard, which means relax to certain people, hah)...and lots of très intéressant things happened..lots of thing to write about... so many picture to upload... yet im inspirationles.
last night i tried to paint again, i usually get adrenalin rush when the brush splash the colour on the canvas,my hand will move swiftly along it,but not last night. i was like a robot, and on my 2/3 of first layer i got bored and totally off. surprised me well...
now i have the optional things to do and the must do list. im lazy at both. pluss i have no i idea why my body ache so much. when you havent been playing netball for half a year and suddenly you 5 games straight, the next day u'll be having a total plastic posture-robot movement = whole body ache. and im having that kind of ache thou not as serious as that. the only game i been playing was spider solitare! dont tell me that could cause me muscle ache too..aiyooo
oh back to the must do and optional list..i have to study microbe for final examination, i have to finish and prepare a presentation on 'dasar-dasar islam', i have to google and plan a where-to-go-in-turkey and update myself about turkey very loong yet inspiring history too. the optional ; finish my 1st layer done painting, caramel pudding mission, apple crumble test, updating my blog with 4 issue articles, and whatever will be added here.
so far...i dont see myself doing any of it.
im started to wonder, maybe this 'no ispirazione' thingy could be connected to the absent of daily ....-....-.... nehhhhhhhh could be that.
last 2 week especialy i was being cramped with books and notes.i dont study 'that' hard actually but last 2 week been the most hardest compared to others (hard here refer to azmin parameter of hard, which means relax to certain people, hah)...and lots of très intéressant things happened..lots of thing to write about... so many picture to upload... yet im inspirationles.
last night i tried to paint again, i usually get adrenalin rush when the brush splash the colour on the canvas,my hand will move swiftly along it,but not last night. i was like a robot, and on my 2/3 of first layer i got bored and totally off. surprised me well...
now i have the optional things to do and the must do list. im lazy at both. pluss i have no i idea why my body ache so much. when you havent been playing netball for half a year and suddenly you 5 games straight, the next day u'll be having a total plastic posture-robot movement = whole body ache. and im having that kind of ache thou not as serious as that. the only game i been playing was spider solitare! dont tell me that could cause me muscle ache too..aiyooo
oh back to the must do and optional list..i have to study microbe for final examination, i have to finish and prepare a presentation on 'dasar-dasar islam', i have to google and plan a where-to-go-in-turkey and update myself about turkey very loong yet inspiring history too. the optional ; finish my 1st layer done painting, caramel pudding mission, apple crumble test, updating my blog with 4 issue articles, and whatever will be added here.
so far...i dont see myself doing any of it.
im started to wonder, maybe this 'no ispirazione' thingy could be connected to the absent of daily ....-....-.... nehhhhhhhh could be that.
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
manusia mudah marah
.....is a conservative mind that will never go far. That unable to see beyond the written word. Theodor Roosevelt in his speech said that ’ a conservative mind is like a legs that never learn to walk’
Amusing… indeed! You cant entertain me more then by exposing the wobbly you with vacillating life notion. Dare to talk to me about people who are not thankful, how they forget about their root, once they have money, go to some poshy restaurant n boost about it. What makes you so different from them? You are one of them. The pits of people for me are those who talk bad about others without even realizing that you are one of them, without an effort to break free from it. Why do you expect me to talk issues with you when you are wishy-washy? Try to give a diamond to a rhino, it will only throw it away deeper in the mud. worthless. ...
i wrote that somewhere few days ago...i must be very furious then...itu lah hasil bakaran amarah dari iblis.nauzubillah..o Allah i seek refuges from You..
Amusing… indeed! You cant entertain me more then by exposing the wobbly you with vacillating life notion. Dare to talk to me about people who are not thankful, how they forget about their root, once they have money, go to some poshy restaurant n boost about it. What makes you so different from them? You are one of them. The pits of people for me are those who talk bad about others without even realizing that you are one of them, without an effort to break free from it. Why do you expect me to talk issues with you when you are wishy-washy? Try to give a diamond to a rhino, it will only throw it away deeper in the mud. worthless. ...
i wrote that somewhere few days ago...i must be very furious then...itu lah hasil bakaran amarah dari iblis.nauzubillah..o Allah i seek refuges from You..
Monday, December 8, 2008
sekarang ini..
“Allah sedang berbicara kepadaku tentang SABAR dan IKHLAS… SABAR dan IKHLAS itulah Islam”
azmin...lupa kah?
قُلۡ مَن يَرۡزُقُكُم مِّنَ ٱلسَّمَآءِ وَٱلۡأَرۡضِ أَمَّن يَمۡلِكُ ٱلسَّمۡعَ وَٱلۡأَبۡصَـٰرَ وَمَن يُخۡرِجُ ٱلۡحَىَّ مِنَ ٱلۡمَيِّتِ وَيُخۡرِجُ ٱلۡمَيِّتَ مِنَ ٱلۡحَىِّ وَمَن يُدَبِّرُ ٱلۡأَمۡرَۚ فَسَيَقُولُونَ ٱللَّهُۚ فَقُلۡ أَفَلَا تَتَّقُونَ (٣١)
“Katakanlah: Siapakah yang memberi rezeki kepadamu dari langit dan bumi atau siapakah yang memiliki penciptaan, pendengaran dan penglihatan? Siapakah yang mengeluarkan yang hidup dari yang mati dan mengeluarkan yang mati dari yang hidup dan siapakah yang mengatur segala urusan? Maka mereka akan menjawab: Allah! Maka katakanlah: Mengapa kamu tidak bertakwa kepadaNya?” [Yunus 10: 31]
azmin...lupa kah?
قُلۡ مَن يَرۡزُقُكُم مِّنَ ٱلسَّمَآءِ وَٱلۡأَرۡضِ أَمَّن يَمۡلِكُ ٱلسَّمۡعَ وَٱلۡأَبۡصَـٰرَ وَمَن يُخۡرِجُ ٱلۡحَىَّ مِنَ ٱلۡمَيِّتِ وَيُخۡرِجُ ٱلۡمَيِّتَ مِنَ ٱلۡحَىِّ وَمَن يُدَبِّرُ ٱلۡأَمۡرَۚ فَسَيَقُولُونَ ٱللَّهُۚ فَقُلۡ أَفَلَا تَتَّقُونَ (٣١)
“Katakanlah: Siapakah yang memberi rezeki kepadamu dari langit dan bumi atau siapakah yang memiliki penciptaan, pendengaran dan penglihatan? Siapakah yang mengeluarkan yang hidup dari yang mati dan mengeluarkan yang mati dari yang hidup dan siapakah yang mengatur segala urusan? Maka mereka akan menjawab: Allah! Maka katakanlah: Mengapa kamu tidak bertakwa kepadaNya?” [Yunus 10: 31]
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
terindah,whoa indah gle!
raheem merciful
kareemun generous
adeem magnificent
aleemun all-knowing
haleem forbearing one
hakeemun perfectly wise
mateen firm one
mannan benefactor
rahmaanun benefficent
fattah opener
gaffarun great forgiver
tawwab accepter of repentance
razzaqun sustainer
shaheed witness
allahuma salli ala muhammad wa ali muhammad
o god send your peace and blessings on muhammad and his family
ya muslimeen sallu alayhi
o muslims send your peace and blessings upon him
allahuma salli ala muhammad wa sahbi muhammad
o god send your peace and blessings on muhammad and his companions
ya mu’mineen sallu alayhi
o believers send your peace and blessings upon him
lateef subtle one
khabeerun all-aware
sami’ all-hearing
baseerun all-seeing
jaleel sublime one
raqeebun watchful
mujeeb responsive
gafuur all-forgiving
shakuurun appreciative
waduud loving one
qayuumun self-subsisting one
ra’uuf kind
sabuurun patient one
majeed most glorious one
allahuma salli ala muhammad wa ali muhammad
o god send your peace and blessings on muhammad and his family
ya muslimeen sallu alayhi
o muslims send your peace and blessings upon him
allahuma salli ala muhammad wa sahbi muhammad
o god send your peace and blessings on muhammad and his companions
ya mu’mineen sallu alayhi
o believers send your peace and blessings upon him
allahu akbar god is the greastest
la ilaha illa hu there is no god but allah
al maliku the sovereign lord
al quddusu the holy one
la ilaha illa hu there is no god but allah
arrahmanu the compassionate
arraheem the merciful
allahu akbar god is the greastest
ya rahman irham da’fana
o compassionate, have mercy upon us
allahu akbar god is the greastest
ya ghaffaru ighfir dhunubana
o great forgiver, forgive our sins
allahu akbar god is the greastest
ya sattaru ustur uyubana
o concealer, conceal our faults
allahu akbar god is the greastest
ya mu’izu a’izza ummatana
o bestower of honour, value our ummah (nation)
allahu akbar god is the greastest
ya mujibu ajib du’aana
o responsive, grant us our supplication
allahu akbar god is the greastest
ya lateefu ultuf bina
o subtle one, be gracious to us
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