no ispirazione

seriously..i have no inspiration these last few days. i was thinking about updating my blog (bercuti gila la blog! lama betul tidak di update), since finally after...2 months,now i have some space and air to actually breath. its not like i havent been breathing all these time but...ok short of breath then, after a week of coloq then there will be next one next week,and next one on the next 2 weeks and a week break then like abundance of 3 coloq the following week, im becoming weak and the cycle continues...when will it end? when autumn semester end. which is yes,it finally ended yesterday. fuh! alhamdullilah!

last 2 week especialy i was being cramped with books and notes.i dont study 'that' hard actually but last 2 week been the most hardest compared to others (hard here refer to azmin parameter of hard, which means relax to certain people, hah)...and lots of très intéressant things happened..lots of thing to write about... so many picture to upload... yet im inspirationles.

last night i tried to paint again, i usually get adrenalin rush when the brush splash the colour on the canvas,my hand will move swiftly along it,but not last night. i was like a robot, and on my 2/3 of first layer i got bored and totally off. surprised me well...

now i have the optional things to do and the must do list. im lazy at both. pluss i have no i idea why my body ache so much. when you havent been playing netball for half a year and suddenly you 5 games straight, the next day u'll be having a total plastic posture-robot movement = whole body ache. and im having that kind of ache thou not as serious as that. the only game i been playing was spider solitare! dont tell me that could cause me muscle ache too..aiyooo

oh back to the must do and optional list..i have to study microbe for final examination, i have to finish and prepare a presentation on 'dasar-dasar islam', i have to google and plan a where-to-go-in-turkey and update myself about turkey very loong yet inspiring history too. the optional ; finish my 1st layer done painting, caramel pudding mission, apple crumble test, updating my blog with 4 issue articles, and whatever will be added here.

so far...i dont see myself doing any of it.
im started to wonder, maybe this 'no ispirazione' thingy could be connected to the absent of daily ....-....-.... nehhhhhhhh could be that.