bodoh!

bila kau mengharap pada manusia

biar dia perdana menteri

teman terbaik

ibu atau kakak mu sendiri

jangan terkejut jika kau kecewa

mereka...

mereka manusia

yang meminta dan diminta

dua-dua LEMAH

bukankah Dia suruh minta dengan Dia sahaja?

serious consideration to stop medicine.

cuppa: salam! phewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww so glad to be back! ^_...

cuppa: salam!
phewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww so glad to be back! ^_...: "salam! phewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww so glad to be back! ^________^ november coming to an end. december! december! becember! becember! cucumber! ..."

the last thing you want to hear at 4.23 am :

there's 'sebiji beras' on the floor.

all and all it's been a very productive day. cupcakes checked! cuppa blog, tomorrow lah. im no king kong.

alhamdullilah, praise be to Him.

good night.

wey apa tido time ni, qiam la!

shuuh shuuh

you dont know the importance of something (to you it is microscopic important) but mean the world to those who will have to sit on it hours to hours protecting from midnight coldness when everyone is warm with duvet.

walk in their shoes.

see how far you can go.

p.s: do you think you can live in madras? i doubt it.

sometimes it feels good to know someone's reading. sometimes.

perhaps the only one who have the will to enter,

HELLO IMAN! I KNOW YOU'RE READING THIS =P

but mr.topan and neuro is waiting for you.

kirim salam sama sisters furqan yah~

Alla fine del gioco, il re e il pedone tornano nella stessa scatola.

scatola = tomba

biar selamat atau binasa

asal Allah nombor satu di dada.

apa yang telah aku buat untuk Allah hari ini?

apa jadi jika kompleks imune kita mengaggap kolagen di dinding salur darah sebagai orang luar (antigen) ?

dia akan serang.

dia akan bentuk anyaman-ayaman fibrin yang kukuh dan keras atau kami panggil 'fibrosis'.

itulah fenomena dalam scleroderma.

apa jadi jika sekumpulan manusia anggap saudara muslimnya sebagai orang yang tak bersama mereka?

dia akan buat tak peduli atau siap kritik.

lalu, orang itu makin membenci, makin menjauhi.

itulah fenomena musuh dalam selimut.

kita semuakan sama. kenapa perlu gaduh. kalau immune serang kolagen, nanti badan sakit. kalau satu kumpulan sisihkan sisters yang jauh, nanti rosaklah islam. terjawab, memang kena peduli. memang kena interaksi dengan manusia. memang kena buat baik. memang dan memang.

ok, tahan nafsu marah. Allah kan Maha Pengampun apatah lagi kamu, nak sombong buat apa? ;)

saya meramal cuaca-kan besok pagi salji putih menyelimuti bumi Allah russia.

jika betul, sila belanja saya makanan korea yang mereka selalu upload di facebook tu.

terima kasih.

the thing i never able to tolerate is

MEMBAZIR

seriously, stop being so pussy and start being thankful. so shallow you know about world consumerism and stuff.

saving space is one thing,
doing and refurnishing is another.

but simply to dispose because 'we dont feel like it' that's... i lost word . have the word 'saving' had been brought up to the sky disappearing from the dictionary?!

no, it's still in mine.

then again, it's mine.

long sigh. shaking head . unwill. there i've said it!

apa yang anda terlepas bila tinggal jauh dari keluarga

apa yang mereka telepas bila anda tinggal jauh

emm itu saja.

im suffocating. really. im coming close to the point of abulia with current and coming week buissness.

and this word keeps one popping : PRETENDER . yeah what the~

kanibalism dan russia. baru-baru ini, ada pemda moscow, pengikut aliran goth, lemaskan teman wanitanya dalam tub mandi. kemudia dipotong-potongnya lalu dibuat steak. hermmm

orang islam sambut raya qurban. dia pun nak sibuk. beza sungguh yang beraqidahkan Allah dan yg gotik buatan manusia. bukankah manusia dibezakan dengan haiwan kerana akalnya?

mungkin akal dikepala lutut

(kes kanibalisim ada lah kes isolate, bukan biasa, tapi nampaknya; ada)

p/s sebenarnya saya findu hendak buat cupcakes. dan kelajuan saya membaca paediatrik malam ini lebih lambat dari kura-kura

apa yang mengingatkan kamu tentang tahun-1?

Foo Fighter - Best of You

-_-'''''''''''''''

sungguh. tapi hebat, apa yang tarbiyah mampu buat pada manusia. kalaulah semua manusia dapat tarbiyah ini... hasan al bana bercita-cita untuk sampaikan risalah ini, hingga ke bayi dalam perut ibunya. subhanallah. aku?

on Procrastination

http://dailymeh.tumblr.com/page/2

Procrastination

The now you may see the costs and rewards at stake when it comes time to choose studying for the test instead of going to the club, eating the salad instead of the cupcake, writing the article instead of playing the video game.

The trick is to accept the now you will not be the person facing those choices, it will be the future you – a person who can’t be trusted. Future-you will give in, and then you’ll go back to being now-you and feel weak and ashamed. Now-you must trick future-you into doing what is right for both parties.

Some psychologists call this self-binding:

Working with the psychologists Frank Keil, of Yale University, and Katherine Choe, now at Goucher College, I recently studied young children’s understanding of self-binding, by showing them short movies of people engaged in self-binding and other behaviors and asking them to explain what was going on. The children, aged 4 to 7, easily grasped that someone might put a video game on a high shelf so that another person couldn’t get it. But self-binding confused them: they were mystified when people put away the game so that they themselves couldn’t get hold of it.

But even though young children don’t understand self-binding, they are capable of doing it. In a classic study from the 1970s, psychologists offered children a marshmallow and told them they could either have it right away, or get more if they waited for a few minutes. As you would expect, waiting proved difficult (and performance on this task is a good predictor, much later on, of such things as SAT scores and drug problems), but some children managed it by self-binding—averting their eyes or covering the marshmallow so as to subvert their temptation-prone self for the greater pleasure of the long-term self.

This embodies a philosophical problem that’s also of immense practical importance: short-term irrationality in service of long-term rationality. Say you’re depressed. Unless you have some modicum of faith that things will get better, at least enough that you’re motivated to do something about it — whether that’s exercise, a psychologist, medication, a new job, or something else — you’re unlikely to get better. Belief that things will get better is irrational: nothing about the past or present indicates it. But at the same time, this belief may be the only thing that can cause things to actually get better; so irrational belief is the rational thing, from a long-term perspective. This is philosophically troubling — foundation of rationality, etc. — but more than that, it’s practical. There are so many situations in everyday life where we need to employ short-term irrationality for long-term gain. Doing things that seem absurd, such as purposely giving ourselves less time to complete a task, can ensure that we actually spend more time on it:

[A 2002 study by Klaus Wertenbroch and Dan Arielly] set up three classes, and each had three weeks to finish three papers. Class A had to turn in all three papers on the last day of class, Class B had to pick three different deadlines and stick to them, and Class C had to turn in one paper a week.

Which class had the better grades?

Class C, the one with three specific deadlines, did the best. Class B, which had to pick deadlines ahead of time but had complete freedom, did the second best, and the group whose only deadline was the last day, Class A, did the worst.

Students who could pick any three deadlines tended to spread them out at about one week apart on their own. They knew they would procrastinate, so they set up zones in which they would be forced to perform. Still, overly optimistic outliers who either waited until the last minute or chose unrealistic goals pulled down the overall class grade.

Students with no guidelines at all tended to put off their work until the last week for all three papers.

We humans are irrational beings. As such, long-term rationality often requires us to bind our future selves through short-term irrationality.

(This post written instead of more important things, naturally. Future me will get to them.)

http://youarenotsosmart.com/2010/10/27/procrastination/

!

saya gila buku. angah pun. anan pun (tapi komik je) along (indon series je kot) sebab mak yang ajar! eh silap. mak tak ajar. tapi mak buat. dekat rumah, buku-buku zaman universiti mak pun ada lagi. kita memang akan terbiasa dengan pendedahan yang berterusan. minda separuh sedar kita serap, lalu membentuk pemikiran/sikap/personaliti.

ya memang mujahadah itu susah. ikhlas pun susah. khusyuk dalam solat pun susah.

tapi dengan pendedahan yg berterusan, tak mustahilkan? :)

hang in there. Allah pasti membantu hamba Nya yang ikhlas.

OH! and this

i want lots lots lots of this

PLEASE?

tak nak bagi tak apa. dekat syurga mesti lagi banyak,lagi juta million kali lagi best. baik mari 'membestkan benda yang tak best' (moto usrah kali ini)

human perceive everything around them, perceive and register them how they want it.

you're lucky enough to know someone who perceive like or almost like you.

i have. TWO. so-alike-it-freaks-me-out but i love it.

yes, that's right. there will be frustration because out off all the people you knew, only VERY FEW who think like you. and believe me you'll grow old to know YOU ARE NOT ALWAYS RIGHT

see?

yes,lots of empty post. precisely what's within now. shame.

fact about russia:

baiklah, mungkin lebih tepat : universiti saya. lebih tepatnya : pejabat dean universiti saya.

suka buang masa orang.

contoh 1:

hari ini, kami semua pelajar tahun ke-5 & 6 disuruh ke dewan kuliah hospital 600 koeka kerana ada pejumpaan dengan pihak universiti. kehadiran adalah wajib. sebab perjumpaan tak dinyatakan. habis kelas semua orang dibatalkan hari ini. ok? ok.

pagi hari kejadian. hospital tak boleh dimasuki melalui pintu biasa, kena guna pintu belakang. sebab pintu utama hanya untuk orang yang terlibat dengan persidangan hari ini. berkumpullah sekalian pelajar yang ramai sekali di lobi hospital. pukul 9.35 masuk ke dewan kuliah. ada yang tak dapat tempat duduk. (iya lah, kan campur tahun-5 and 6, mesti tak cukup) lalu datang orang pejabat yang dinanti-nanti.

'baiklah, pelajar tahun-5 boleh keluar)

apakah?!

-_-'' maka terbengkalai lah kami di luar hospital, tercengang dengan insiden tadi. 'habis panggil kami datang nak buat apa?!' bisik semua orang. tak berapa lama kemudian, kami dibawa konvoi jalan kaki ke tugu Piragova. ramai orang berkumpul di situ. (paling ramai doktor urology) bersama kamera besar dan carnation merah. tercenggang lagi, hendak buat apa?

rupa-rupanya ada menteri kesihatan datang hendak melawat. -_-'''''''''''' pukul 10 upacara tamat. terima kasih.

batal kelas satu hari untuk ''perjumpaan'' kosong selama 1 jam. makin bertimbun lah kerja dan topik yang mesti dihabiskan.

kemudian kitaran buang masa ini akan berulang and ulang lagi.

hari ini hari arafah. sunat berpuasa. jadi kita mesti sabar. bayangkan pagi tadi, orang yang tinggal dari pinggir moscow turun ke hospital. dari lokaliti 1 jam jauhnya turun datang. dari 5 minit berjalan kaki, turun ke hospital. merata-rata berkumpul untuk ''perjumpaan penting hari ini''

hari ini juga dia arafah, umat islam seluruh dunia berkumpul. tak kira dari darjat mana kau datang, berapa banyak duit dalam akaun, miskin, sbgnya,,, semua berkumpul, sujud dan berdoa dengan sungguh-sungguh kepadaNya.

hari ini juga pukul 9 malam nanti selama 10 minit kita (penganjur dan semua orang islam yg terlibat) akan berdoa untuk kemenangan kita di palestin.

http://www.globalprayer2010.com/index.php

stone cold - hard headed

wearing medical mask is brilliant. even if you make faces or yawn no body knows. you're laughing while they give you a good yell, they wont know. you make one side of the mouth up another side down saying you're annoyed, they wont know either. sometimes you just want to express it even when you know that it's wrong.

thus

will be great if you can hide some.

p/s: im not exactly a morning person. im the cranky old maid instead.

oh yeah that. im sorry.

cupcake mission tonight ACCOMPLISHED alhamdullilah. early morning paediatric lecture tomorrow. i better be up *cross finger*! a call for 3spoonful pimple inducer mr.C****e . qiam is the solution it seems. :)

physiologically LOVE is directed to unite, bearing children for future of mankind.

not everyone is like sheldon cooper. leading us to see cheesy quotes or emo picture showing heart as in jantung taken out bleeding -oh-so-dramatic or make-me-puke status or TMI i-hate-you-can live-without-you or it's-my-life-i-wont-be-hurt without-you etc etc etc.. (human are that predictable in some area) ... human are yet so different that nothing fits everyone except one. DEEN from Allah.

FROM HIM. not human who are indulge on their never ending nafs.

CHOOSE HIM over yourself or him or shoes or cloth or pc or parents etc.

and why do people associate love with mind bobbling awsomazing heart?

i have two love and hate relationship

airport

and

this

i didnt make it to peads lecture enjoying babies reflex and kids zobolevanie because of this. :(

lesson : dont let your stomach empty for 10 hours long even if you can suppress the hunger with anxiety of learning new ideas. your stomach pits just dont get it.

stanislav grof.

psikiatrist dari negara czech. terkenal kerana mempelopori LSD psychotherapy. sukarelawan terdiri daripada pelukis, arkitek, penulis novel, pokoknya pekerjaaan yang berkaitan dengan jiwa. memang mereka ini dipilih khas oleh stanislav grof disebabkan mereka mampu mengekspresikan apa yang dialami jiwa dalam bentuk lukisan, atau penulisan.

setiap pesakit diberi halucinogen yang terkuat LSD, lalu khayal. bila kita kata ; khayal..

khayal itu bagaimana?

apa perasaan khayal?

dimana destinasi khayal dalam minda separuh sedar kita?

kenapa orang suka berkhayal?

mereka dimana ketika khayal?

itu yang cuba dirungkai oleh stanislov grof. boleh rujuk disini hasil lukisan sukarelawan yang terlibat

http://www.cowboybooks.com.au/html/acidtrip1.html

http://www.psymon.com/psychedelia/images/lsd-psych/index.html#contents

hemmm manusia.. sampai begitu dia cari. bukan salah dia mengkaji. salah manusia yang suka ambil jalan mudah. putus asa dengan dunia, lalu melarikan diri ke dunia lain. hacur dengan dadah. sudah terlalu burukkah dunia ini? apa jadi dengan pelangi, matahari, segala simbolism untuk harapan? untuk hari yang lebih baik?!

apa dunia ini hanya penuh dengan kejahatan dan tekanan? masakan status-status facebook digunakan sebagai medium melepaskan geram pada orang? makin ramai yang putus asa dengan dunia. pagi tadi ketika sarapan, saya dikejutkan dengan berita pelajar 14 tahun bunuh diri kerana tidak tahan dibuli, dipanggil 'gay, fag, etc' oleh pelajar sekolah. bayangkan, boleh terlintas dalam fikiran kanak-kanak (sebab belum mencecah umur 18 tahun) untuk melontarkan dirinya ditengah-tengah kesibukan lebuhraya, lalu dia mati dihempas trak kontena.

isthifar.

sewaktu kamal antartuk mabuk dengan sekularism, banyak yang dia ubah. tak pernah bumi Allah ini menyaksikan ketiadaan khalifah selepas wafatnya rasulallah saw, akhirnya melihat kerusakan paling besar yang mampu dilakukan oleh tangan manusia. kamal antartuk tak mabuk seorang diri, golongan sekularism, liberalism yang terdesak untuk kelihatan maju pada zahirnya berani mengatakan agama sebagai 'candu' ummah.

lihat!

hah lihatlah sekarang!

manusia tidak beragama.

manusia sudah hilang tujuan hidup

dan candu yang mereka cari

LSD yang mereka beri.

dan mereka masih kata agama itu candu ummah!

memang kami khayal dengan 'candu' bernama agama ini. sebab solat itu membawa kami pergi tinggi tenang kembali. sebab puasa itu mengawal kegilaan nafsu kami. kerana quran itu bawa kami berkhayal tentang tempat yang terlalu indah bernama syurga. 'candu' ini yang menyebabkan para sahabat tak sabar mengejar syahid. mengejar syurga. ''aku bau syurga di uhud!'' laung anas bin nadhar.

'candu' ini buat kamu tidak melenggang mak limah.

'candu' ini buat kamu BERSEGERA!

''kalian haruslah menunjukan sis-sisi positif yang ada pada agama kalian, menjelaskan segenap prinsip dan ajarannya, serta menyampaikannya kepada mereka yang sedang dilanda kehausan luar biasa, yang nyaris membakar dada mereka selama hidup di dalam kbang meterialisme dan gaya hidp mekanik yang serba keras''

Komitmen da'ie sejati ,pg 35 (yg dari ijtima' Ru'asa'il Manathiq,pg 251)

kalau nak rasa LSD, mungkin boleh cuba ini:

kelas pediatrik 9.30-12tgh - jalan 400m -kelas psikiatri 1.00-4.30ptg - lari 1.5 km -kelas filosofi 4.00-6.00 ptg = perasaan berjalan atas angin.

(formula diatas hanya berkesan jika tidak diganggu oleh pemboleh ubah lain seperti, makan tengah hari nasi/roti/etc )

FYI: Howl's moving castle OST played by Czech philharmornic orchestra!

ты есть на аск.фм? хотела тебя добавить, но не нашла... или формспринг тебе больше нравится?

nyieto. lutshee formspring chiem ask.fm.

Ask me anything

kenai anis suraya raya x?? (heart)

suraya? hari raya ke? duh,anis pegi study la!

Ask me anything

G.E.R.D. gerr

really aint cool when you re-taste mandarin pulp you had previously chewed

no, it's not delish at all when you had to re-chew big chunk of meat you took for lunch

i dont fancy spicy burning sensation after-1-hour resurface to remind you that you had sambal/tomyam for dinner.

it's not awsome to know that it's a predisposing factor of barrett esophagus and might proceed to carcinoma, which increase the risk of esophageal varies, and the most scary esophageal bleeding with highways of anastomosis, stop.

back to happy things like baby brain development and CNS

(alhamdullilah for Girls Mega Games today. so much fun, too much to tell, to little energy.)

it feels like everybone is falling from a building call the body

every joints ached, screaming dully from behind on every move i made

a belt like pressured invisibly applied from frontal to temporal and ends at the occipital region.

lets call it a night and rise for victory tomorrow

wait.

i have a date tomorrow.

with Him. morning. early morning.

with that, i know i'll be fine.

(you're more then welcome to join us ^^)

i better off now before i mutated into a grinch or something

pagi bermula dengan subuh. berkejaran ke kelas pukul 8.30 pagi.

pulang ke rumah pukul 12.30 tengah hari.

siapkan kerja hingga 2.30 pagi.

hasilnya, 150 biji kek cawan untuk 'girls mini games' besok.

tak ,

satu email pun saya sempat balas.

telefon juga sudah 3 hari tidak sempat membelek.

jam tangan, baru jumpa lepas habis kerja tadi.

konklusinya. hari yang produktif materialnya, tapi ruhi?

hemm

seriously boys. how do you live in russia, moscow to be precise? when everything is sprinkled on you, and the access is limitless. i mean from money to internet to women to games, to no prarents to say no, to no friend who care if you're self-destruct or simply live in vain , to no person who bother about where you're going. you see it as the real freedom?

i guess it's here where you find the pearl. ah wait as for guys...it should be something manly like emm uranium? yah, metal in al-hadith.

just because you can, doesn't mean you have to.

and the one whom stood strong in His path, that's someone. He stood tall, one notice it from far.others....hermm is just...everyone, disperse unquantified in crowd. 14: 24-25

same goes to the girls. but seriously boys.

subhanallah, sportive Muslimah Hi Tea is so warm with loving heart. Allah bless us all. bright days for islam and the rest of the world. good night .

p/s i watched spirited away with my family gazillion times. it's our all time favorite. northern side of peninsular : flood. but they are fine alhamdullilah. ok i miss them so bad now. back to peads.

bismillah

HELLO KIDDOS! lets get to know each other real well ok. i'll be good to you; you dont let me fell asleep yeah.

bismillah

fine i love psychology.

i dont know.

i laugh at psychology.

i think human are funny

trying to figure out something that cant be examine in lab. something that is not at all concrete.

everything is based on assumption.

like our Dr, ask in class today, how do you examine psychiatry? when it's an idea?

hit it!

and there goes my mind, neuron dendrites started to arbovarize.

it's funny. but at the same time, it keeps you going.

and i cant help but to doodle this, once my all time enemy call 'mangantuk' came and decided to stay for a while

the Norwegian painter Edvard Munch's "The Scream"

but it's mind wobbling when a test can tell you almost 75% or sometimes even 90% correct about yourself.

like this

Extraversion

Some people like lots of stimulation; they want people around them, activity and excitement, whilst others prefer to be able to focus on things in a calm and quiet environment. Most people prefer a blend of the two extremes although your answers suggest you have a preference for the livelier situations. This may help you if you work in busy, hectic and very sociable settings but you may get bored and even frustrated when things are too quiet.

and this

Agreeableness

Most people want to be able to get on with others but to some it is the most important thing in the world, whilst others are quite happy to upset someone else if it means that things get done.

Your answers suggest that you can be firm with people when you need to be but that getting on with others is still important to you. Like most people you would rather avoid conflict but are not prepared to put up with being treated badly by others.

and this

Openness

While some people like experimenting with new things and ideas, others prefer traditional methods and taking a very practical approach to problems.

Your answers suggest that you may more interested in the creative, new and experimental aspects of situations than dealing with the routine practicalities. While your dreams and plans may not always be achievable, you are likely to be very open to new ideas and ways of doing things.

and much more. but that should have prove my point. so yeay, emergency department is winning by 2 miles (yea, ER is on the lead after ENT incident )

i wanted to write about something else, but i totally forgot. neurosis?

p/s: why is the word 'Copenhagen' keeps popping in my head like popcorn lately?

Bismillah

alhamdullilah tamat. cycle 'surgery & gynaecology' sudah tamat. tidak akan kedengaran lagi bunyi mesin pencetak, menyetak 'refarat' setiap pagi. tidak ada lagi keluhan bila ink sudah habis. atau geramnya melihat banyak kertas terkorban gara-gara silap format atau kurang ink mesin pencetak saat 4 baris terakhir dalam 1 mka surat penuh dengan teks.

bukan itu yang sukar. ada yang lebih dari itu. Professor Naumov Anatolievich itu yang mendebarkan dada. apakah hari ini akan kena marah? reffarat cukup info atau tak? cukup gambar tak? ada info atau prosedur surgery yang tak dimasukkan kah? ahhh! sungguh 'cuak'

ada yang lebih dari itu. ZACHOT. apakah mampu untuk melepasi cycle ini atau mungkin perlu ulang? bertimbun reffarat harus dibaca dalam masa yang singkat. fuh! sampaikan hari ini dalam dewan kuliah 'intestinal obstruction' tersengguk-senguk! aterial ischemia, jawab, tersilap sedikit (mana boleh aterial disease, thrombo-embolism jadi watak utama), treatment. selesai.

postavila zachot! pheww... biarlah susah cycle dari susah final nanti.

12 tajuk besar untuk diabiskan dalam masa satu hari. boleh sebenarnya. tapi kenapa seminggu sebelum exam, tak mampu nak buat demikian? ya, tepat. sebab tak ada rasa urgensi.

ujian tak akan makin senang. makin susah ada lah. jadi bila dah berpeluang untuk duduki ujian saat itu, buatlah yang terbaik. jangan nanti ada bunyi 'kalau lah dulu aku ....dulu ujian lebih senang kalau hendak dibandingkan dengan sekarang....kalaulah'. ya, kalaulah kan?

kita takut dengan benda nampak dan kesan yang terus. umat nabi sebelum Muhammad saw, semua diturunkan ujian terus selepas mereka berbuat kezaliman. tapi kita diberi penangguhan.. ya,tepat PENANGGUHAN bukan dilupakan, tak hilang begitu sahaja.

dan tak. hidup tak berhenti disitu. ini hanya sebahagian kecil agenda hari ini.

herm..... hidup yang pergi kelas pulang belajar dan makan kemudian esok hari mengulang benda yang sama? betul lah cakap boona 'so many live but so little truly live' .

Bukankah manusia itu sebaik-baik makhluk? tapi jika makhluk yang terbaik itu, perlakuan hanya seperti boneka yang dungu, apa hebatnya disitu?

anak singa yang telah didik menjadi anak kijang pengecut, lari sembunyi di balik semak- samun. anak adam yang hebat namun telah terdidik menjadi manusia jumud, pulang ke rumah menghadap computer hingga larut malam? begitu?

kenapa manusia takut dengan islam ya? takut apa yang disukainya saat jahiliah dahulu terpaksa dilepaskan? jangan bimbang.

pasti tak akan.

islam tak menghalang, tapi membatasi agar tak memakan diri.

iya, seperti budak kecil yang baru belajar berlari, kalau tak diletak pagar, hah sampai ke hujung taman dia lari. sedar-sedar sudah jatuh ke dalam longkang sendiri. kita ketawa dengan 'apalah budak ni, apa pun tak tahu, dah ada longkang, jangan la pi terjun masuk! itu kan longkang!'

sama lah. kita hanya manusia yang terbatas fikirannya, jangan terlalu sombong mendabik dada mengaku telah tahu semuanya, sedangkan kemampuan kita hanya seperti budak kecil yang belum kenal dunia. Dia yang cipta, maka Dia yang tahu. DibataskanNya apa yang perlu, agar kita tak jatuh ke dalam longkang busuk.

dulu saya melukis anime hanya sebab ..... entah saya pun tak tahu sebab apa. tapi agak finatik alhamdullilah, Allah tak tarik itu dari saya, sekarang saya melukis juga, tapi atas cupcake. atas sebab dakwah kerana-Nya. perniagaan apa yang lebih baik berbanding perniagaan dengan-Nya?

kami di sportiv ada pihak menganjurkan program yang digelar 'talian sahabat' . hari ini saya dapat surat dari dia yang akan saya panggil 'goldilocks' (sebab dia yang mengelarkan dirinya begitu) . Manusia itu sifatnya terburu-buru kan? saya hendak tahu siapa 'goldilocks'! hermm mesti orang dekat juga, sebab dia ada bertanya 'hows your zachot surgery coming along?' . my answer for that, Alhamdullilah. :) and nah a little footprint sticker she left for me. (aha! try to leave a footprint in my heart is it? hehe )