i plan a lot


how i wish i work as much 


is it wrong to run outside, lie on the grass and stargazing? 
you see, im a hardcore dreamer, perhaps a .. 


scratch that.  

Boonaa Mohammed - Too Late

                                                                                          

Московский книжный дом

D emm nanti usrah pukul berapa? nak pergi lama kah? sebab saya rasa, nak pergi dalam satu jam setengah sahaja. Petang nanti ada urusan yang perlu ditunaikan. 

Pukul empat. Tak apa, nanti balik lah dahulu, saya boleh jalan-jalan disini sahaja. 

baiklah...

 

Pastinya bukan itu yang terjadi. 1 jam 30 minit, menjadi 3 jam. Mana mungkin pergi ke gedung buku, hanya 1 jam, kalau pergi ke pusat membeli-belah, bolehlah 1jam siap. Di gedung buku, 30 minit sahaja terkagum dengan jumlah dan kepelbagaian buku. Selebihnya, baca sambil berdiri, penat, baca sambil duduk, dan pelbagai aksi lagi. Perjalanan nak membayar, pastinya tidak selancar yang dijangka, ada saja buku yang mengoda. Berhenti lagi, baca/ tengok gambar sama-sama. 1 jam.....hermm itu mustahil.

 Orang kata sama, kadang-kadang terasa sama juga. D tarik ''emotions revealed'', A tarik ''generation X''. akhirnya D beli yg lain, a beli yg lain. sama saja. tapi, satu cara makan roti bermula dari bawah ke atas. yg seorang lagi makan roti, bermula dari keliling. Sebenarnya niat, mahu kekalkan status anonymous gitu, tapi memikirkan bukan ada orang baca, saya pun meng-watever-lah lalu letak juga yg terakhir ini. 

 hermmm seronok sebentar, 3 jam hari ini terasa bukan di Russia. 

1.

hidup lengang itu B U K A N realiti. 

di saat masa mecengkam ketat, pekerjaan kita, PALING KOMAN mesti penuhi mutabaah ibadah harian. Ini suatu janji. 

*koman = lekeh, paling rendah

падение, слава

1. 

So M, where's your another pair of 'tapashka' ?

urmm here? 

it's outside. 

haha modern day Cinderella, both were late, but the later, was late to class. 

2.

Once upon a time, the israeli could not imagine, world without being tortured by the pharaoh. Nor the world can imagine a day without 500 years Islamic civilization. But the sunnatullah is, what is up will come down. I'm guessing this mall, glory; passed. Like autumn leaves. Just because you're once up there on the tree, doesn't mean you wont fall on the ground when it's time. 

It's about how far you let yourself fall and weather you lie down there dead, or will you struggle, swim toward the surface, better then ever, with pearl in your hand, thanks to the fall. 


what say you?

too greedy

sometimes you're just too greedy

it's not like you're going to contribute anything

perhaps the status that dilutes you

or maybe the name that spread virally

could be the trust you longing for 

not impossible for it to be the final respect and acknowledgment

being a part of a building 

building that you're not belong to,

it's just too dangerous.

you try to mask yourself 

as if you were part of those strong bricks 

but who are you lying to?

one day, 

when you just cant handle the turbulent wind

the earthshaking quake, 

cats and dog form of water droplets,

the suppose to be brick will ....

you keep your internal mono-log,

im brick 

i deserve to be here

im better then everyone else 

you like to think of yourself that way, 

you want to believe it like that,

at the end of the day,

the night reveals,

your 'brick' as strong as mealy an egg shell

your inner spec? 

that's just egg white and yolk. 

very weak

liquid. easily change.

strength wise? forget it,

you're not in the list. 

now that the truth surfaced

you stare none but the pavement

ashamed

sometimes i wonder where have i gone wrong

the choices that i've made

stubbornness which i allow to tied and keeping me at a dirt point

engulfed by 'i know myself better then all of you ' 

little that you know, 

sometimes.....

that phrase lead you to the point

'I know myself...better then You'

yet,

after darkness of the night 

come the warm sunshine

after being so hungry

you'll be full soon

after suffering from infection

antibodies will come to rescue

CHANCES 

you're not running out of for now 

la tahzan,

bad choices were made now and then 

just remember to keep on trying

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to be the one that He always mention in the guidebook of mankind 

سُوۡرَةُ النّحل

ثُمَّ إِنَّ رَبَّكَ لِلَّذِينَ عَمِلُواْ ٱلسُّوٓءَ بِجَهَـٰلَةٍ۬ ثُمَّ تَابُواْ مِنۢ بَعۡدِ ذَٲلِكَ وَأَصۡلَحُوٓاْ إِنَّ رَبَّكَ مِنۢ بَعۡدِهَا لَغَفُورٌ۬ رَّحِيمٌ (١١٩)

Then your Lord - for those who did evil because of ignorance, then repented after that and corrected themselves - surely your Lord is, after all that, Most-Forgiving, Very-Merciful. 

ابن عباس رضي الله عنهما : لوقال لي فرعون : بارك الله فيك، لقلت : وفيك.

Andai Fir'aun berkata padaku; "Semoga Allah memberkahi dirimu!", pasti kan kujawab, "Dan dirimu!" -Ibn 'Abbas

25092011 Осенью, Новодевичий парк

27092011 советской, метро

i promise to write something

i will try to write something

i must try to write something



some  thing







*cross finger* 

there's a void. a word unsaid. im saying this anyway.

my word can find it's bridge. thus, it cant be connected. simply means, it's gone. explain why i don't write anymore. be it malay, english, or russian.

i guess, from now on, it will be like a 'the da vincci code' blog. word to be uncode off. huh? hishh.

moscow = clash of unfulfilled dream and need to move on.

that's how i view moscow, all the way back from airport to hostel yesterday, yesterday. how similar we're moscow. haih.


the kooks-naive