aku merindui kamu

rindui

mama
abah
aldik beradik
rumah
tok
updating blog
internet
sushi
mentega kacang dan jem

aduh~

`sengal mode`

becoming pelik

hanya kerana menjadi pelik, tidak bermakna awak berlainan dari orang.

dalam menjadi AKU, pelik itu perlu? rasanya tidak perlu~

get it? i dont think you do~

get outa here

i just realized after plus minus 50 days holiday, how bored i'am with internet. never thought i would feel this way. kah kah kah. the thing about internet is, it is so LONELY. i felt like im wasting my precious time alone, while im suppose to be out there, spreading the truth and helping those who need. oh how precious life is.

not 100% bad about internet thou, i may gain some info, butttttttt to surf the net 15 hours a day, ermm not goooood. aishhhh...get up! get up girl!

forgive me when im whine

Im in baling right now. This morning I weighted myself and oh my gosh, im damn heavy. Im fat! What should I do to get rid off this super extra fat of mine? My family said, ‘tati you are not that fat’. yeah right…thanks…but I think I cant think that way. Why? Im just 20 and I weight this much! imagine azmin in 10 years time. I might even look like a monster!

that’s what I thought a few hours ago…

But at this moment, all I can think about is how ungrateful I’am. Since im in baling today, no woman /female in the house accept me, means that I will have to do the house core which I don’t mind doing it. So after preparing lunch and do some clean up(amirul’s room was a 70% messy). Then watched Martha steward and Rachel ray show,I went to abah’s office to meet his staff . On the way to his office I can see a lot of pak cik and mak cik and anak-anak kecik too. I wonder what are they doing here. It feels like im in hospital rather than in kompleks sukan.

Ingatkan lepas ‘malawat’ abah dekat office nak terus pergi main basketball. Tapi sebab ramai orang dekat depan court (although they don’t play there) so I decided to write.

The ungrateful me.

Im complaining with full-stomach. From where im writing I can see lots of mak cik and mak cik. Abah cakap today they are having majlis kutipan derma dan menyerahan wang kepada org yang kurang berkemampuan. . .

I can say that I have everything. From loving family, comfortable life, uhwah in sisterhood, syumul religion, all technology junkies (accept Iphone) I can afford to buy branded stuff, im studying in excellent academy, and the list of how lucky I’am is endless YET I complain! Memang sangat tidak bersyukur. Sesungguhnya Allah dah bagi banyak sangat rezeki. Kalau lapar, makanan pasti ada, kalau tak ada pun, boleh keluar belI. bila lapar,complain lapar, bila sudah kenyang, complain gemuk. Apa ni?! Sungguh kufur nikmat. Astrafirullah hal’azim….




While im complaining with full-stomach, this pak cik and mak cik here don’t even have enough money to live. If they hungry, tak tentu akan dapat makan. Kalau ada makanan atau duit sikit, ada la,kalau tak ada, tak ada la. Thou they don’t talk about it, I can see clearly their tired face, exhausted bearing the pain their whole life. And they wait patiently and alhamdullilah, what jabatan belia dan sukan& jabatan kebajikan masyarakat is doing for them today, at least may reduce their weighty burden.

Oh Allah…Oh Allah forgive me when im whine…
I have two legs to walk upon…
And the world is mine…

home again!

yes im home again before im off to baling this evening. lets dunk! wuhooo.. yesterday been a hurmm agak penat. i slept most of the time actually, and i think im tired because of that. i went to johor for k.dayah jaris walimah then balik to KL. and from KL to Alor Star. hehe. but it was a great one.

muqayyam? alhamdulliah lancar. syukur dapat pergi muqayyam ni. rasa kesian dan sedih jugak buat kawan2 & adik2 yang tak dapat datang, sebab pengisian tersangatlah berguna dan best sangat. i'll be writing more about muqayyam later, but for now cukup la sekadar lepaskan geram nak publish something kat sini. hahaha.

baru nak rajin sikit

oh my...this lazy creature name azmin just cant get her lazy ass off the bed,not even to spill something and update her bloody boring blog. why am'i being so lazy? whata enquiry there...i think i been asking myself with the same thing since my school days, and im pretty sure i will be doing the same for the next decade and so on...

anyway for now, whats up with the lethargic me? hemmm...simply because of 'azmin working ethics' i think.do it perfectly or dont bother about it. if you live with me then u'll understand it. heh... explain why i showed no sign of guilt when i didnt go to lecture or even class. i just dont see the point in going to class if i think i can study and understand better under my super comfy duvet. ha ha ha. well of course im not 100% right but that's just me. i know, it's bad but hurmmm... nah im a flexible person, only when i have a very good reason to change my believe. hah self-reasoning again.

wow now i understand why i didnt update my blog. hehe. no point in posting update if the article is a er.....shoddy? ah...what ever it suppose to be name.. i wanna change this. even thou i'll be posting a nothing-big-post, i will forgive myself for that. haha. too bad im going to KL tomorrow because i'll be going to muqayyam in gombak and after that to johor (my naqibah is getting married!). so no post from 4 till 9 of aug. again!

cuti

im bloody lazy to update my blog these days.noo moood nooo expression noo inspiration noo time. later..

flight to london is on 4th of july and azmin prepare.... nothing...well..not yet

i haven't
~pack my things.
~beli baju for the graduation (if angah tak cakap 'pakai lawa2 tau' i wont bother about this,isk)
~beli SD 1GB
~ambil spec at ong's
~withdraw money
~tukar duit
~charge all electronic gadget
~oh...basuh baju...


arghhh serabut serabut
im gonna miss home,along,anas,anan,amir,ami,k gayah,ayam,bilik,lappie.
so now im in ' serabut+malas nak pegi+best jugak ' mode.

hope it would be a splendid journey. amin...

wasting time

Put your player on shuffle.
Answer the question with the song you got.

What does your mum said when she yelled at you?
cheer up boys (your make up is running)...foo fighter
hurmmm weird...maybe my mum yelled at me because i look so sad then...spasiba


Your best friend punches you in the arm, what will she say?
ya nabiyya...UNIC
thats what friend for,remind you when you forget :)


Your crush bumps into you at school, what will he say?
heard em say...kanye west ft adam lavgn
nothing last forve but be honest babe...lala
huh? er....ok mr.crush?


You worst enemy walks up to you, what will you say
fly away...nelly
fly away wuuuuu....and i wont come back, got a few more feet but its still the lonest yard
longest yard,uh huh.hey it takes a lot to control your rage okey!blah le cepat...gerrr


You are walking down the street at night with stranger, what will he say?
perantau-far east
selamat tingal desa ku...jauh di perantauan...lalala hahaha
he just telling me about himself,i guess...


You see your pet, what will you say to her
wait for you ...elliot yamin
i never felt nothing in this world before..bla bla bla..now im missing you......
what a romantic moment there,it just a pet doh.


Your favorite teacher comes to you, what will she say?
walk away ...kelly clarkson
you got your mother,you brother, everyother, telling you what to say
ok...thats pelik


What song do you play when you are...
Happy
wonderful life
eh..kebetulan lak. :D


Sad
ya mustofa ...sami yusof
ya mustofa...ya mustofa..ya mustofaa...
ya..ingat lah Nya.itu yang terbaik


Depressed
sedarlah insan...shuhotul amal
kemana akan pergi selepas hidup ini....sudah bersediakah kamu....
wow! how did this i pod know?! so true. why depress over keduniaan matter?


In love
hear you me...jimmy eat world
there is no one in town i know..you gave us some place to go..
yeah,you do..accept that 'you' doesnt exsist.


Missing someone,
man ana...brothers..
this shuffle thingy,getting more weird.


Having a bad day
kerana sayang, V.E
WHAT?! i have this song in my ipod eh?


Trying to go to sleep
pillars of islam--zain bikha
yes.insan memang selalu lupa. mesti ingatkan diri sebelum tidur!


Really really hyper
higher..creed
no comment


What song was being played when you were...

Having your first birthday
ya nabi salamun alaika
really?

Going out with your first boyfriend
one perfect something...linkin park
yeah...i know im one of a kind.uh welllllll


Getting married
c'mon c'mon...von bondies
Yeah baby yeah! cmon! kah kah kah kah


When you're having your first kid
cant take my eyes off you..muse
y're too good to be true...cant take my eyes off you...
yes my baby,,i cant,can i? ;)

blackout

cant believe it,
tadi blackout.
i mean,hurmmm tah brapa lama tah tak blackout.
brings back memories...yaaaaa..........

anyway, i was having a session with anis,when the light suddenly hilang,
ermm....what to do?

listened to ipod and main solitare. ...
bored,then
lepak kat bilik mama and abah with other siblings...
bored,then
watch anime 'hidamari sketch' with amir (hoping that i've charge the lappie',and yes i did ,thank god!)
kindda bored then,
watch till habis....then

voila the lights are back to shine my life! thanks TNB!

a little incident here, makes me realize that, how i cling on gadget that required electricity wayyyy toooooooooo much....causing less interaction between human. i guess i've learned my lesson now...

ho ho ho azmin here,ho ho ho

Sabda rasulallah saw ‘Hak seorang muslim keatas muslim yang lain ada enam:

bila bertemu ucapkan salam,

Bila diundang maka penuhilah,

Bila meminta nasihat maka nasihatilah,

Bila bersin lalu memuji Allah maka Sambutlah dengan doa,

Bila sakit maka jenguklah,

Dan bila meninggal dunia maka taq’ziahlah’

H.R Muslim


A visit marathon.

Visit to kak gayah house. Bendang, lembu, langit biru, ban, morning, total blisss….. Subahanallah cantik sgt. I guess my life in Kedah cause me this. Entah la, paddy field+blue sky tu macam part of me already. I been missing it all these while….dan bila dah jumpa balik, I felt an intense feeling of exhilaration. Is that how lovers feels ?

Anyway, the visit was good. Kak gayah is one of my most respected person. I can say that she sacrificed her life to be with us. I hate to use the word ’maid’, she is more like a family to us…..kak gayah, we luff you!!!

Then to penang. Toooookkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I miss her soooooooooooooooooooooooo much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tok tak berapa sihat sekarang. Dah kena guna wheelchair. I felt weird seeing her on wheelchair. She used to be like a bee. Going here and there. Moving freely…but now, her movement is limited. Tapi her super optimistic and magnificent spirit maintain. A salute for you tok! =)

Tok nak pegi melawat org meninggal dekat guar kepayang today. So she called hanif (my cousin) untuk tolong hantarkan. Its been like 1 year ++ since the last time I met hanif (due to study and stuff) and wah, got to admit he looks like a hotties now.LOL! Dear cousin you must not read this statement or you’ll be bangga like heck.

Oh yeah and my another cousin, arifah, she such a sweetheart. So polite so sweet so nice. Tolong dia packing barang tadi siang. Esok she will be flying to Sabah! Sabah bak! Bestnyer! Congrats girl, dapat uni ermm dah lupa nama U kat Sabah tu, tapi she will be studying there. Lucky you! Belajar baik-baik ye. Teman Ipah to settle her PTPTN thingy dekat bank and lucky me, I got to know her friends,miss mira and Juliana and mr.wan. Envy them,tiap-taip raya pun boley balik rumah..hehe

Next to uncle ashburnt (abu bakar, hahahahaha) and auntie (pangil Chik je,my mum lil sis). Rindu rindu rindu! But too bad aisyah tak balik from indon lagi, and atiqah baru je p balik U, and Muhammad g keja. Oh well….tak dak rezeki la tu…maybe next time… and I gave pak cik bakaq his Russian fur hat tu! He looks like khagazstan man with that hat on. Hahaha. I think he was very very pleased with the present.

Then to giant sungai petani, arghhh anas la, dok bising nak pegi. And unexpectedly, jumpa ajie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh rindunye! Its been like hurmmm almost 3 years tak jumpa dia! And her mum, autie zah! Sob sob sob…I really really miss them,alhamdullilah jumpa. Fuh, syukur syukur. Wow wii, ajie sekarang kan, dah kurus, cantik,and berboyriend…hurmmm…

‘izzati ko tak de sesape special ke? Eceh eceh……’

No I don’t. heh.

Final visit was to rumah autie zaleha and uncle ilyas. Nak jumpa lang. lang dah tak sihat kebelakangan nie. Dah kurus sangat. Heart problem.

‘tati hang mai sini sat, cerita kat lang ubat-ubat had doctor suruh makan nie, khasiat dia apa?’

Alamak, pharmacology tak blajar lagi la!

Er….so I just like selak-selak what ubat and I found, ASPIRIN, well I can explain that very well including what pathway aspirin block! Hehe excited. Then urmm LOVASTATIN, and ntah apa lagi tah. But I did explain the importance of micturition in heart prob patient…ape ek nama ubat tu…tak ingat…start with ’F’.. im soooooooooooooo gonna work very very hard in pharmacology next year! Aja aja!

Then balik. Oh Russian choc for every visit, nak kasi semua martroshka mahal sangat la…hehe =D

‘sesungguh nya orang-orang mukmin itu bersaudara’
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