open house MAI~many thanks

lets see..

called mama, 15 minutes then my credit habis.. i want to use Voip but somehow there is audio problem,and im not sure it lies on my lappie or voip. most probably...my lappie. oh well... but i still can use YM..but mama dont have YM... why would she have it at the first place, so i have to ask angah or amirul to turn on their YM so that i can call their computer..

"min, ivitation to MAI (moscow aviation institute)..pergi tak?"

hurmm chance for pembinaan hubungan (sister-sister je ye)....OK! I'll go

oh wait...i have date with mama tonight... so i have to cancel it with mom..

'ok la,mlm esok ma cuba.jg diri d tempt org. Jgn mkn byk sgt'

from:mama luv
9;48pm 25-oct-08


thanks for understanding ma...but... 'jgn mkn byk sgt'?
whats up with that statement ma...hehehe...takut tati gemuk n tak de org nak ek?
or takut tati kena hypertension? or takut tati jdi malas ma?

doesnt matter.

one thing for sure about that statement is
me n mom v buckhhm palace london
ma sgy tati
--->tati pun sgy ma!

tati syg Allah
---->Allah pun love tati

mama syg Allah
-----> Tati harap Allah lagi syg sgt sgt ma! sebab tati syg ma pun sebab Allah yg suruh..endless love..without conditions...simply pure love and care =)

you cant feel the love unless you love back.
Allah loves you always, but do you love Him back?

Can you feel His love?

feels like 'kahwining' lol

what does 'kahwining' means? it means 'kahwin+ing'. dont bother to wiki it, i rojak the bahasa with english..like always...manglish...or...bahasalish....or rusianlish....or maybe rubbish? definitly rubbish..

a'a'a'a'

it's 1.48 in the morning, and so far i've studied non...few hours ago i was browsing thru materials for my next usrah,seaching for aproppriate material to give...and i've just noticed that i have this book 'manhaj tarbiah, methode pembinaan dalam al-quran'. a very good book indeed. the problem is, i dont have much time to read it till the very end, since im having my usrah this sunday. oh as usuall 'the-last-minute-tati' so i end up not knowing what to give...not yet..

oh how i waste my time here... plus, darn it, im so lazy to update my blog ...i might as well close this blog for good.. but if i did so then i wont have any crapping channel..heh

next, im planning to study surgery tonight, and maybe some russian too and then qiamullai (for god sake,my soul need it badly!) but it is just a plan... azmin's plan...which means... usually only 30% will be follow...ok not that low....maybe 60%...

and im stuck right now...uninspired... well that's my biggest problem i guess...i cant do anything if im not inspired! i cant study, i cant read (even if i do try, masuk telinga kanan keluar telinga kiri je la), i cant write (except the crappy stuff), i cant highlight the endless medical text, i cant draw, i can read quran ( i cant,if you know what i mean,lol!), i can read tafsir ( yes! yes!).....basicly im an 'einvalid' (disable) when im uninspired...since i got back from pharmacology class (4pm) till now (2.05 am) been 10 hours already!


بِسۡمِ ٱللهِ ٱلرَّحۡمَـٰنِ ٱلرَّحِيمِ

وَٱلۡعَصۡرِ (١) إِنَّ ٱلۡإِنسَـٰنَ لَفِى خُسۡرٍ (٢) إِلَّا ٱلَّذِينَ ءَامَنُواْ وَعَمِلُواْ ٱلصَّـٰلِحَـٰتِ وَتَوَاصَوۡاْ بِٱلۡحَقِّ وَتَوَاصَوۡاْ بِٱلصَّبۡرِ (٣)

In the name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful

By the declining day, (1) Lo! man is a state of loss, (2) Save those who believe and do good works, and exhort one another to truth and exhort one another to endurance. (3)

kyahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

it's time like this when my mind gone wild....started to think the unimportant issue... too fertile imagination... and it's time like this when i started to think that 'hurmm maybe kahwin would be fun~' tapi...dengan siapa? BIG question mark there
ngehe he he (belajar malas,main je tau!)

but i know,that is not my aim and wasilah for now
hisss nonsense betul..

dayinah: kau vs machine.hahaha =/

(hanya gambar hiasa,tidak berkenaan,no no the machine is not a lappie)

me plus dayinah plus bank card plus apropp time will result in huh?! tak de keje ke? haha..its not like tomorrow we dont have class. in fact tomorrow will be one of the 'penateeeeest' day (general surgery morning-lecture proped afternoon-microbiology evening) but oh well who cares. lapar but malas nak masak,so another good reason why we should go to mega right.at least for both of us.ngyaaaaaaaa...feels like cartoon actually...imagine 'automatic door vs azmin and trolley load with stuff' heeee very cartoon..memalukan betul..but nah that automatic door was soo stubborn! hissss

between 2 evils choose the less one

how about between 2 good, which one should i choose? how am i suppose to know which one is better? like today, i have 2 very good options.

1. daurah in kahovskaya ;fiqhul dakwah. 1st hand information! owh just imagine about it fuhh High~~~~~~~

2. open house in kuzminki; i been wanting to spend and really talk to some of the people coming. i think the input and output ratio is not balance so i really think i should do this.

so which one did i choosed today?
2nd. thou my dear friends balik dengan full percious 'kefahaman' (yes i was a bit jealous) but i think i've made the right choice. even if was the wrong one,theres nothing i could do accept correcting it didnt I. Melalui hari-hari dengan berani! huk!


anyway here's pic taken from todays event,guest n kuzminans

yosh!

oh how i miss this... great things happened didnt they? well suppose today I'll have a very tiring day,lets see

12-1 travel to fruzenskaya
12-3.30 russian class
3,30-4.45 travel back to kuzminki
4.45-5 ++ usrah in kuzmin
5.++ -8.00 usrah with k.dayah suhimi
8.30 till morning cooking 10 balshoi periuk curry
11.00-2 open house kuzminki
2-4 cleaning ..........
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no-pulse detected.

i should be worn out by then~ tapi kan,class russian dah cancle! wuuuu means i have some hours to study.

abes bila masa nak cari bekal for ''tomorrow''?

al-muzzammil,surah 13

إِنَّ نَاشِئَةَ اللَّيْلِ هِيَ أَشَدُّ وَطْءًا وَأَقْوَمُ قِيلًا ﴿٦﴾

6: Truly the rising by night is most potent for governing (the soul), and most suitable for (framing) the Word (of Prayer and Praise).

إِنَّ لَكَ فِي اَلنَّهَارِ سَبْحًا طَوِيلًا ﴿٧﴾

7: True, there is for thee by day prolonged occupation with ordinary duties:

وَاذْكُرِ اسْمَ رَبِّكَ وَتَبَتَّلْ إِلَيْهِ تَبْتِيلًا ﴿٨﴾

8: But keep in remembrance the name of thy Lord and devote thyself to Him whole-heartedly.

praise to be upon Allah SWT who always understand me,with me thru thick and thin, and this..... Subahanallah he always there,helping me n giving me solution for situations that i faced... oh how I love Him!

aku merindui kamu

rindui

mama
abah
aldik beradik
rumah
tok
updating blog
internet
sushi
mentega kacang dan jem

aduh~

`sengal mode`

becoming pelik

hanya kerana menjadi pelik, tidak bermakna awak berlainan dari orang.

dalam menjadi AKU, pelik itu perlu? rasanya tidak perlu~

get it? i dont think you do~

get outa here

i just realized after plus minus 50 days holiday, how bored i'am with internet. never thought i would feel this way. kah kah kah. the thing about internet is, it is so LONELY. i felt like im wasting my precious time alone, while im suppose to be out there, spreading the truth and helping those who need. oh how precious life is.

not 100% bad about internet thou, i may gain some info, butttttttt to surf the net 15 hours a day, ermm not goooood. aishhhh...get up! get up girl!

forgive me when im whine

Im in baling right now. This morning I weighted myself and oh my gosh, im damn heavy. Im fat! What should I do to get rid off this super extra fat of mine? My family said, ‘tati you are not that fat’. yeah right…thanks…but I think I cant think that way. Why? Im just 20 and I weight this much! imagine azmin in 10 years time. I might even look like a monster!

that’s what I thought a few hours ago…

But at this moment, all I can think about is how ungrateful I’am. Since im in baling today, no woman /female in the house accept me, means that I will have to do the house core which I don’t mind doing it. So after preparing lunch and do some clean up(amirul’s room was a 70% messy). Then watched Martha steward and Rachel ray show,I went to abah’s office to meet his staff . On the way to his office I can see a lot of pak cik and mak cik and anak-anak kecik too. I wonder what are they doing here. It feels like im in hospital rather than in kompleks sukan.

Ingatkan lepas ‘malawat’ abah dekat office nak terus pergi main basketball. Tapi sebab ramai orang dekat depan court (although they don’t play there) so I decided to write.

The ungrateful me.

Im complaining with full-stomach. From where im writing I can see lots of mak cik and mak cik. Abah cakap today they are having majlis kutipan derma dan menyerahan wang kepada org yang kurang berkemampuan. . .

I can say that I have everything. From loving family, comfortable life, uhwah in sisterhood, syumul religion, all technology junkies (accept Iphone) I can afford to buy branded stuff, im studying in excellent academy, and the list of how lucky I’am is endless YET I complain! Memang sangat tidak bersyukur. Sesungguhnya Allah dah bagi banyak sangat rezeki. Kalau lapar, makanan pasti ada, kalau tak ada pun, boleh keluar belI. bila lapar,complain lapar, bila sudah kenyang, complain gemuk. Apa ni?! Sungguh kufur nikmat. Astrafirullah hal’azim….




While im complaining with full-stomach, this pak cik and mak cik here don’t even have enough money to live. If they hungry, tak tentu akan dapat makan. Kalau ada makanan atau duit sikit, ada la,kalau tak ada, tak ada la. Thou they don’t talk about it, I can see clearly their tired face, exhausted bearing the pain their whole life. And they wait patiently and alhamdullilah, what jabatan belia dan sukan& jabatan kebajikan masyarakat is doing for them today, at least may reduce their weighty burden.

Oh Allah…Oh Allah forgive me when im whine…
I have two legs to walk upon…
And the world is mine…

home again!

yes im home again before im off to baling this evening. lets dunk! wuhooo.. yesterday been a hurmm agak penat. i slept most of the time actually, and i think im tired because of that. i went to johor for k.dayah jaris walimah then balik to KL. and from KL to Alor Star. hehe. but it was a great one.

muqayyam? alhamdulliah lancar. syukur dapat pergi muqayyam ni. rasa kesian dan sedih jugak buat kawan2 & adik2 yang tak dapat datang, sebab pengisian tersangatlah berguna dan best sangat. i'll be writing more about muqayyam later, but for now cukup la sekadar lepaskan geram nak publish something kat sini. hahaha.