aint hamlet nor sonnet

in denial for not missing
in state of fighting for forgetting
in battlefield for conquering one heart

in scar from the turn down
in pain from the uncertainty
in revenge from the appointment

in blockage of ideas
in blockage of inspiration
in blockage of relating factor

am drowning by the guilt
am suffocating by the ignorance
am trembling by the worries

no its not you
its me

again
no its not you
its me

im not...
im not rich
im not bright
im not smart
im not diligent
im not astute

despite being given A GIFT worth more then the world and its content

i cannot
no
i DO NOT afford to be the 'not'

oh snail...if you can stretch your body like that,
can i do the same with mine?

no

because everyone is disparate
im not unlike
be day nor night

so goodnight...


masih mencari bahan yg sesuai utk pengisian usrah besok..binggung2
mahu masak cucur udang ke usrah tapi sudah janji mahu order pizza delivery saja
tekanan betul pharmaco belum 100% settle...jadi anak bandacho dgn paksa rela...ah relakan saja!
lapar...tapi sudah pukul 11.11..sila tahan ya perut.